JENNIFER PACANOWSKI

WHOSE SOUL IS THAT?

I have a huge gaping hole in my soul.

My body has all of its extremities.

Ten fingers and ten toes just like the day I was born.

But now, I have a huge gaping hole in my soul.

You can only see it through the violent shaking of my hands
and the excessive bouncing of my knees
and the uneasiness of the breaths I can barely take.

You can only hear it when the constant vomiting and
shitting leaks through the bathroom door.

I feel the sand on my face, awakening, as if a black hawk
just took off the flight line.

No, it's just the rumble of a truck passing my parents house.

Why does everyone look at me like that???

Judging the girl with the gaping hole in her soul.

Where did all this weakness and fear come from?

The gaping hole drips with pain,
Ragged are the edges where they ripped her heart out,
Emptiness is all you find where her loving soul use to be.
Anger and hatred is now her contagious disease.

Don't ever, look into her eyes.

The cynicism and lack of belief in her government may
burn your eyes and cause you to see the light.
Interrupting your Happy Care Bear world with all your
smart opinions on the war YOU NEVER FOUGHT.

WAR.

Before the war my eyes shone with hope,
optimism and an idealism that I could make a
difference and maybe, just maybe, save people.

Instead I stand here on my homeland soil and listen
to your fancy ideas and lies about the war,

THE WAR THAT I FOUGHT!

And every time they vote for the continuation of this
needless and unfounded WAR. They vomit the blood of my
fellow fallen soldiers and Marines.

I have a huge gaping hole in my soul.

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JENNIFER PACANOWSKI